feel afraid......

Remembered that it is already almost one and half year i have joined into Chinese society in TBS.....
There is always have something for us to busy....
busy wat??
this must be the main question for those who don't really know about our Chinese Society...

well,not much la....just like CNY welcome celebration,selling oranges,and coming is camping,selling mooncake for mid-autumn festival......
of course it is not do my myself,there are still got others member to do together....
but the point is,i'm the President of Chinese society...it is really stress!
everything is like involving me,and i should know how to decide the matter....blah blah blah...
But frankly,join into chinese society really enrich my life,it made my life coated in colorful in past few years without blanked......

However,the price for this is not less.....
it made me always thinking about chinese society,chinese society,chinese society in everytime and everywhere....
and now I'm start doing a camping for coming mid year....
although I was just started to do this,but it is also my mind started to worried this and that...
I don't know how to describe the working committee for this camping....
maybe they are just new into the family of Chinese society,they are really not look the importance of activity into account....they don't gonna to do their own job seriously....
and a guy said want to quit from tis society....and the point is only him know how to do the sound system!! oh ghost!!even all of us try to beg him he also dun wan to change his mind....haiz....hard to do man....

Of course not all of them are not use...there are also mostly of them are nice....just like Panda Jules,Xiao Rou,You Jia,Jc......especially Jc,she is not the member of Chinese society,but she also prepared to help me to do work...thank you very much Jc.....and also sorry....because it is really took up your time and energy....i will treat you nicely later...
Yeah...all of us gambateh ok!?!?

another hand is,the school principle and vice-principal,Mohd b. Md.Isa and Abdul Aziz b.Bujang....
I hate them very very well....They keeps raising difficulties over our Chinese society plan....
What orang Melayu...what jaga hak bumiputera...always look down of other race,they really have race prejudice...
all of our chinese activity must invite Malay students,even CNY celebration and chinese chess competition are also need to invite them....if not they are not allowing us to do the activity...
really shit thing...
"uncle,are you all Islam and Malay matter ever invite us chinese to join be4?''
oh yeah,if you really invite us,we are also not interested with it.
just like you all Malay,r u really interested with our chinese activities?!?!
Where i could find the Malay to join ?!?!
I don't how you all will set what problem for us to solve....
I hope that you won't......
I sincerely hope that it is smooth and fair along the road organising this camping...

Uugghh...just like lots of friends told me,船到桥头自然直,haiz....现在不直都要撞到直啦...

22th Ferbrary 2008....a hell day for me....

feel strange right?

Move backwards to that day,i had account tuition at 4.30pm.Usually,Melvin's mum fetch me go to the tuition and my mum send us back.However,Jie Ren said not to trouble our parents,we can go to tution as it is not far away from our home,So,we decided TO CYCLE.(It was the most wrongly and stupid decision in my life.-_-")

First,i cycle to Melvin's house as his house lies below from my house.Then we cycled together to Jie Ren's house.When we reach there,the pig is still sleeping.zZzZ...After the pig awake,we cycled together for the tuition.Again the pig Jie Ren said,we should take the road across to the 德教会 as it more nearer and faster.Again i had made a most serious mistake in my life.

We were chatting and cycling......After we passed the 德教会,there is a T-junction.(i will remember this corner forever.)We had to turn left.On this occasion,Melvin was cycling in front of me,and i wanna to exceed him as he was blocking my way.When i turned left,i don't discover that there is a ditch dump,and my bicycle scratch on it.And then i was losing my balance then fell into the ditch!!!OMG!!!I can't believe that!!!The ditch is not shallow,it is so big and deep!!i fell into it completely!!Even my bicycle too!!Oh ghost!!

What made the thing miserable is,the bicycle was stucking me,and i can't move.I was so pain that until i don't know and forget to shout.I knew Melvin and Jie Ren also be dumbfounded.Fortunately,an uncle who was riding a motorbike also saw the incident.He quickly call they both pull out my bicycle and pull me out from the ditch. I can't get out from the ditch at first as my legs were already ''soft''.Finally,i get out from the hell ditch.I felt that the view i was looking was so blurred and like spinning.I thought i will faint there.The uncle quickly ask me sit on the grass beside the road.When i was clear-headed,U guess what first sentence i said from i get out from there?"SHIT!SHIT PUNYE BARANG!"

I was not sad but i was very angry.Then i felt that my left hands very very painful,such like had broken.It is not cause by the wound,it is painful inside the bone.VERY VERY PAINFUL!!!AW!!!
As my wound is bleeding,the uncle quickly take dunno wad leafs is that crumbled it and then put onto my wound.I knew it was a wrong step as im a st.john member.But i can't stop him to do that as i was too painful.I just knew that i keep on pressing my left hand with head bent.And Melvin also as a member not to help me to stop him doing that.Haiz....Somemore,he was so ashamed and keep on saying sorry to me as he felt that is him fault made me like this...haiz....Melvin,not your fault la...

Melvin had called his mum and told her about that.After a while,her mum and her sis came with a big Nazaria car.Her sis quickly help me to go onto a car.And my bike also put into it.They send me to Dr.Chua's house.Dr.Chua was shocked when he see me.He asked why and who put the leafs onto the wound.Then he help me to clean my wound and coating.And he also checked my hands and legs whether got broke or not by putting up and down my hands and legs.

After that,Dr.Chua's daughter,Shi Yi send me and my bicycle to my house.
In that few days,my left hand had no energy,even to take a pen.Like a maimed person.
Now,i had recover,just my wound are still drying and waiting for recover soon.
I'm here to thanks anybody who had gave me a great helping hands.
Thank you very much to the uncle who had pulled me out from the ditch.
Thank you Melvin as u had called your mum to come and fetch me.
Thank you Michelle,u had support me to stand up.
Thank you Auntie Goh as u came and fetch me to go to see doctor.
Thank you Dr.Chua,u had help me to clean my wound and gave me medicine without charge any $$.
Thank you Shi Yi to send me back to my home.
And thank you Jie Ren to give your wonderful ideas,so that i could fall down and thanks to so many person.
Thanks to everybody who had helped me.THANK YOU VERY MUCH.TARIMA KASIH BANYAK-BANYAK.ALIGATO.谢谢。

HaPPy ChInEsE nEw YeaR!!!

Gong Xi Fatt Chai and happy chinese new year to everyone......
sry to everyone and to myself as it was a long long time i never update my diary....(I’m forcing myself to update my diary today coz 2morrow is already chap goh mei…wuwu…)I'm not irresponsible,but I'm too buzy........the everyday schedule almost make me can't gasping for air...said truly,if i got time,i rather used it for sleeping or resting.Like a logion"resting is for going a longer schlep".
Well,come back to chinese new year,what a pity,i didn't or i couldn't feel the aurae of CNY.
Maybe it is cause by the buzy schedule again.....
Haiz.....you guess what?I even don't have time to go shopping and try the new costume for the CNY anymore!!!Yeah,it's real!my mum's just bought two blouse,one trousers and one skirt for me+it was not my appetitie one....However,i felt nothing....i even told my mum no need to buy any costume for me as i don't care about that anymore!

U all will strange what am i busying right?well,i'm here going to tell u all....everyday,i got lots of homework and the tuition almost packed full the time,but it's not the main point,the main point is i'm busying the society activities like selling mandarin oranges and one day camping+party for the coming CNY(all of that activities including finding sponsors,buying oranges,wrapping the oranges,thinking ideas,meeting,dancing practice for only that 3 mintues,dress rehearsal....)All of that are for earning money for the society.....Conclusion is=i do lots of thing is not for myself,but is for the society.....I know i'm not the most busy one,there are still lots of roommates like Hannah,Wen Yi,Min Yi.....but guys,i'm just a little girl,i can't do so much things,i'm not a tough like u know!?|+_)(*&^%#@!~}{":?><@!~ Okok,its enough…..come back again to CNY now…tis time is real now… First day of CNY is the same with past year,go to neighbour’s house gathering,go back to grandparents’ house,received a lot of ang paos……Second day,a lot of cousins,friends and neighbours came to my house,guess wad?Because my house got open house la!i stll remember that I was so busy in preparing food and drinks,serving cousins and friends…But I was very delighted that day,because I just felt the mood of Chinese New Year on that day!Eating the mouth-watering food,chatting with friends,playing cards,playing mahjong,singing karaoke…..Wow!wonderful and memorable day!HOHOHO^^ Next few day of chinese new year,just like anybody else,vistting to friends house,get small small angpaos….just nth….okay for all now,tomorrow is already chap goh mei,happy chap goh mei to everybody!!!Our Chinese New Year is coming to the end! (I promised to myself and you all,this diary will not seize on over here for two to three months. I’ll try my hard to update my diary at least everyweek….) ^^ even my dog had wore his new costume for the CNY,red red....

2008.............

I don't want to grow up!!
Grow up will have a lot of troubles and worries!!!
Form 4,learn new things,more matured,but more burdens!!
Study,tuition,club activity,music class,school activity........
The pressure.....
I scared i will untenable!!
I'm not a independence girl,i scared to stand alone sometimes,I'm a dependence girl!!!
I really really hope that time can flow backwards,back to the time when i was carefree,lighthearted!!

PMR result!!!

27th is the death time of all Form 3 student....including me....
Because it was the day of PMR result!!!!!
I didn't think too much last night and feel nothing because i just came back from camping in Malacca..........feel tiring and exhausted!!
I only called to my best of friend Kristin and chat for a while about the PMR result....
we promised to each other that we must call to one another if we get the result...
and of course we blessed good luck to each before put down the line....

I woke up at nine o'clock,a bit late,maybe i was too tired last night...
When i switch on my phone,i saw a message from Kristin"call me when you wake up".
Without thinking much,i called her.
She said she don't have transport to go to school to get result,her dad got meeting and cant fetch her.

She wanted to ask her friends,but all her friends did not take her phone.
I was so shocked when I heard she cried,and feel so strange why she cry.
Maybe she is too nervous.
However me as her best friends of course help her to solve the problem,I called her to ask a friend,Shirley and she can fetch her go.

I went to school at eleven,with a friend called Shu Hui.
Although eleven had already late,but the idiot principal never reach school yet.
While we were waiting the result,I don’t know why I was so pressure and finally I cried.
My friend Juliana still played a song with plaintive melody, 菊花台 by Jay Chou.
So lame Juliana!!!

And we wait and wait,we saw a gang of people go towards the blok.
Without hestitated,I run there as fast as I could although my leg was already “soft” and my hands were shivering.

When I reach there,I saw many of my friends had got their result,most of them are 7A or 5A.
And the method to get our result is very special,not teacher called us to get our result,is how dare you are to sit on that chair to wait for the teacher to give you your result.

“brokbrok…brokbrok…”I feel that my heart beat very fast,almost jumped out from my mouth .
And my whole body was shacking like a leaf.Oh my GOD!!
However,I must face the fact.Finally,I go front and sat down.
Teacher is finding my certificate….i was so scared and holding my friend’s hand tightly!!
Finally,teacher pull out a certificate,I saw her face changed within in 1 second and said“oh…kurang 1 BM…”
My tears forced out like a waterfall when the teacher said that.I saw my teacher was shocked when she saw me cried.She and my friend quickly gave me a great comfort.

After all,I calm down.But when I called my best friend,Kristin,my tears moistened my face again.
“Wuwu….Wuwu…..”While I was crying,I already knew that she got straight As just from her excited voice.She was daunted by my cried and asked me got how many As.She thought I got a bad result.
I told her my result,she sympathize my unlucky and of course she tried to comfort me.
From the phone,I knew that there are also a lot of student drop in 1A,like kah chun ,wei ming,shin min and more.Most of them drop in chinese or Geografi subject.

After that,I called my parents.
They all shocked by my crying voice.They thought that I got a bad result.
When I telled them their result,I knew they have a bit dissappointed.
But they said they already satisfied with my result.

On this occasion,a pig techer said, “The student who do not get straight As please stand outside the class.”Oh shit teacher,make me more no face.
I quickly went to the stage and sit there alone.
Because I don’t wanna let others see me.
After I cried enough,then i asked my friend to fetch me back at about one o’clock.

I really felt that I’m unlucky,and no idea why I will got B in Malay.
Haiz…..forget it.
I’m now open-minded,I should be optimistic,because there are still a lot of people unlucky than me,isn’t it??

My HoLiDaY!!!camping....

In this holiday,I had done a lot of matter,joined various kind of activity....However,
Nothing interest me more than joining a camping organization called "飞跃舞台"!!
Oh yeah,my friends all will know it right??
I'm quite sure that it was an unforgettable experience for all of us...

<---Dancing in the big group,still remember the warmness of hand-in-hand,dancing and singing together......
Haiz.....pleasant hours fly fast....The 4 days 3 nights camping trip windup in the twinkling of an eye.....
Until now,I still have a great mind to stepping back into the past.Go back to the time we happy together,crazy together and high together!!
Oh my god~~~~my mind occur again the faces of the small children!!!


The time when the small guys bully us!!!--->

All in all then,form this camping,i had learned a broad knowledge.....How to do a camping well,how to get along with others,how to cheer up myself when suffer by a failure........

And the foremost is........I had known a lot a lot of new friends!!All of us are just like a big family!!They all are our sisters and brothers,and of course our dad is Sir.Tam!!Haha~~~~

<---Campfire picture!! Billows of fire is catching us!! Still taking picture?!?!









Wonderful masterpiece ~~~Thanks to the guys who work hard to create this--->


<---Graduate picture.serious one~~~







Another graduate picture.
But crazy one!!!! --->

PMR??Finished!!!

well,after long time of my hard work,finally i had finished my PMR!!
The most terror examination!!
However,the word ''YEAH'' i still need to keep it until the announcement of the result....
Haiz,how many As will i get??
oh my god......under pressure now...please...please....bless me for good result.........
although it was a little bit too late....
Urrgghhh....forget it....forget it...just let it be...let it past.....
Just wait until the result come out k....
hoho~~~~~
Wad time is it?!?!It's BREAKING TIME!!!